April: 01st - April Fool's Day 01st - Syahrul's Birthday 02nd - Avril Lavigne Bonez Tour 03rd - Mum's Blood Test @ KK 05th - Doctor Appointment @ TTSH 07th - Justin ORD 10th - Mum's Surgery @ KK Hospital 12th - Aaron's Brthday 13th - Doctor Appointment @ TTSH 13th - Opening Of (Eight Below) 12th - Opening Of Movie (Firewall) 14th - Good Friday Holiday 17th - Gary's Birthday
20th - Boss's Birthday
20th - Boss's Birthday Celebration
23rd - Emil & Jonathon Concert 05
26th - Andy Lim's Birthday
May:
01st - Progress Reward Banked In
01st - Labour Day Holiday
01st - Jennifer's Birthday
05th - Opening Of Movie (MI:3)
09th - Winnie's Birthday
12th - Vesak Day Holiday
18th - Opening Of (Da Vinci Code)
25th - Opening Of Movie (X-Men 3)
:: Wish Upon A Star ::
01) A Girlfriend? Let Fate Decide It
02) More Incoming Funds (Money)
03) Apple iPod Video 30 GB ($548)
04) Complete My National Service
05) A Handphone (Nokia N91)
06) A New Wallet
07) New Adidas Watch
08) Apple iMac G5
09) Looking For Pen Pals
:: Current Config ::
Typing On:
- HP iPAQ rx3715
[Samsung S3C 2440 Processor]
[152MB Internal Memory]
[1GB Scandisk SD-Card]
[64K Transflective type QVGA TFT]
[Integrated WLAN 802.11b]
[Integrated Bluetooth]
[1.2 MegaPixels Camera]
[PocketPC Windows Mobile 2003]
- IBM Thinkpad T22
[Intel® Mobile Pentium-III 900MHz]
[1GB RAM]
[60GB IBM HDD]
[64MB ATI Mobility RADEON 7500]
[DVD/CD-RW Drive]
[Iomega USB 250MB ZIP Drive]
[14.1" TFT Active Display Matrix]
[Internal Lucent V.90 Modem]
[Intel PRO/1000 Gbps Ethernet]
[Windows 2000 Professional]
- My Own Personnal Rig
[Intel Pentium-IV 1.7GHz]
[Asus P4P800 Deluxe]
[512MB x 2 Kingston DDR400 D43]
[80GB DiamondMax Plus 9 HDD]
[128MB NVIDIA GeForce4 Ti 4200]
[Creative Audigy 2 Platinum]
[Internal Toshiba DVD-ROM Drive]
[Internal Pioneer DVD-RW Drive]
[External Plextor CD-RW Drive]
[Internal Iomega 250MB Zip Drive]
[17" ViewSonic CRT Monitor GS771]
[smartNIC PnP Network Adapter]
[Altec Lansing ACS 44]
[Windows XP Professional]
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Wednesday, July 14, 2004
Do I have some problems or what?! I am losing sleep these days, feeling very depressed and weak. The way everyone is treating me is scary.
My mum rang me up in the morning saying I'm so thin, then when she came over, she said my face became 'sharp' and asked why am I so thin. Then there is my dad. He was talking so sarcastically the whole day about my life, diet, life and my behavior. It is as if they have a problem with me or purposely picking on me. I sensed that something is wrong, so I tried to slip out of the house for the afternoon. I called Sara and asked her out. Agreed to meet her at Heartland Mall at 2pm.
Reached Heartland Mall at 1.30pm. I thought that I am early, but instead, I found Sara in the MacDonald ordering food. It is very strange that she could be so early. She have never been earlier than me in all of our appointments. I just shrugged it aside as there is always a first time for anything. We got our food and sat down eating. After eating our burgers, we decided to take a bus over to Punggol Park.
The weather wasn't hot, so we took a slightly longer stroll than normal. We sat at one of the shelters after our walk. I noticed that Sara hasn't really been herself the whole time she was with me, so I asked her if there is anything on her mind. She wasn't really willing to say, but she mentioned that it got to do with her Harvard University application. She told me that the deadline is approaching and she has yet to make a decision. She asked me if she should go. Being the selfish person that I am, I told her to stay. I felt so guilty after saying that. She said that she is seriously considering giving the chance up for the sake of me.
I was so touched and guilty. She is willing to give it up all because of me, but yet, I have been so selfish to ask her to stay even though I know that she very much wanted to go. I could tell that she really wants to go. Regretting what I have said, I told her that she should not give the chance up because of me. I explained to her that although she meant a lot to me, I do not want to restrict her drains and ambitions. I could tell that she is very worried about our relationship if she were to leave. I assured her that regardless of the time and distance, I will still remain the same. We had a very close heart-to-heart talk, considering and talking about our future plans.
After we open up our hearts, I realized that the extent of her love for me, could really convince her to give her studies up. I shouldn't be so selfish as to persuade her to stay. I should instead encourage her to go for her dreams. The only thing that is holding me and her back is the question, "Will our relationship change if she were to go?". Although we have faith in ourselves, we have seen too many long-distance relationships broken up in the end. We do not want our relationship to end like this. Despite all the worries, I told Sara that studies come first as this is a special chance that she is having.
I sent Sara back after dinner. Sara promised me that she will consider about putting her studies in the first priority. While walking back to my home, I thought about a lot of things. "Am I suited for her?" "She is much clever than me, she deserves someone better." More doubts begin to surface. There isn't a day which, I can live by without any worries. I missed the schooldays where I do experience so much problems in life.
Another day passed by and I am losing hope for the search of Vivien. I promised myself that I will continue to search for her for another week. Regardless of the end result of the search, I am to forget and give up on Vivien. I really do not want Sara to worry too much or become disappointed because of this. The search will end on the 21th of July. This must end.
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