Summary for today...

Don't have the mood to type much today. My mood is extremely foul today.

It is a shit day with extremely bad happenings. My sick aunt's condition changed for the worse. Have been at hospital for most of the day. It is very sad to see her in such a condition. There is nothing I can do to lessen her pain. Nothing I can do to make her better. What in the hell can I do? It is a total Fu*k up situation. I am so helpless!!! What the fu*k did heaven have in plans for her? After all that she has done, they are just going to take her away like that? Fu*k up.

Can someone tell what to do? Can someone guide this guy on the right path?

Seeing the state my aunt is in now, tells me that good people do not get their deserved rewards. So why in the hell am I staying good for? To die early? I am an extreme sadist today. Nothing good comes to my mind at all. All I can think of is why the fu*k are we here for?

Anyway, the girl in the picture is Jessica with Zixian. They looked very compatible together. Nice couple. Guess I am the only one left alone. No one to care for and no one care about my life and death anyway... Is there really a girl out there, who will like my character and attracted to my looks. I find no meaning in life. There is nothing to push me through my life right now. Zixian said that I missed Sara too much, but I think I have given up hopes in life and turned into a sadist for good.

FU*K UP WORLD!!! FU*K UP RULES!!! FU*K UP LIFE!!!