Anyway, I have changed the background music to "Yi Gong Chi"... It is a very beautiful song to describe my feelings deep down inside. I feel fu*k up by life and nothing is going right! Everything and anything is going wrong for me.

The condition of my aunt has affected me a lot, I know. But I don't think that it was my aunt's condition that caused me to turn out like this. It is everything that had happened, which made me take a second look at life. I need someone to guide me out of this.