Please excuse my behavior last night. I seek for forgiveness for my actions.

It seems that I wasn't myself at all last night. All the words and all the thoughts were twisted. I couldn't get a hold on myself, while terrible things happened. All the happenings made me unclear of myself, doubting all the things in life.

Maybe it was jealousy and envy. Jealous that everything is going fine for others, while my life is uprooted by so many unpleasant happenings and events. Envy of others that they have someone by their side to help and care for them, while I am left to rot on my own and no one to confide to.

My problems had piled up to an unmanageable lot. I am having a crisis of faith.